The Anxiety Of Writing Is Real

 

The Anxiety of Writing Is Real

The Anxiety of Writing Is Real

 

The Anxiety Of Writing Is Real

 

Graphophobia – A fear of writing

http://phobia.wikia.com/wiki/Graphophobia

 

Graphophobia

Graphophobia

 

This makes me feel vulnerable that I’m exposing the innermost thoughts and that writing could lead to devastating outcomes for me in my life.

 

 

Writing in public knowledge leads to a paranoia which is akin to being naked in public

Dive Into Your Emotions

Dive Into Your Emotions

A journal is a place for us to dive into our emotions about our lives

I’m unable to shake the fear of writing honestly, or of releasing raw emotions and truth to the page, having just the thought of doing so fills me with shame. I have a fear that I’ll get invaded through my writing. It’s real. It makes me feel vulnerable knowing that I am exposing my inner thoughts and the devastating outcome which can happen. What if someone knows that it’s me, things that I’ve never shared with anyone, memories which I have buried comes out to light. What if my husband, friends or family find out who I am.

How did the fear come about?

Simply because I have buried too many memories, feelings, and events that I am ashamed of, matters which has been left undealt with. And since I have started writing, these “MEMORIES, FEELINGS AND EVENTS” are surfacing, forcing me to be in touch with myself again. Maybe there is more to it, which I haven’t figured out.

Embrace Your Fears

Embrace Your Fears

What I Concluded

Is there a cure for it?

I doubt so. There are so many things, topics, and articles which I can write. But that is not what I want to do. The only rule I have for myself is to feel it and to use it in my work. If it’s not coming, then I’m not ready for that yet. I can’t purge the fear because the fear is a part of me and that makes me special in this entire progress. The anxiety and fear have crippled me and I have not learned how to deal with that.

Learning to embrace the fear

Learning how to make it trans-formative is a very personal integral process which I hope to achieve. It is only when I learn to embrace the fear and to accept, then will I be able to heal and take it off as a writer. My goal is to ride the wave of healing and this is my journey. What’s Yours?

 

Believe In Yourself

Believe In Yourself

 

 “Your Experiences Will Bring You, Riches”

And I wish you the best of luck on your journey too.

 

Check out my previous article ” Always to Blame, Always My Fault, Always You & Never Me

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What It’s Like Living With Depression and Anxiety | Mental Health | Searching Her

The Unseen Depression

The Unseen Depression

 

What it’s like living with depression and anxiety

 

Depression

What it’s like living with depression and anxiety

First of all, It is different from feeling sad or being in a bad mood.

In other words, unhappiness is something everyone feels at one point.

A depressed mood is a normal temporary reaction to life events such as loss of a loved one. But being sad is not the same as having depression.

Unlike a person suffering from depression may experience high levels of Anxiety together with other symptoms. For example, simple things like going to work, socializing with friends, or getting out of bed can be a struggle. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away.

Depression comes in many different forms.

Not everyone who is depressed experiences every symptom. Some people experience only a few symptoms while others may experience many. Fortunately, it is also treatable.  Below is a list of common signs and symptoms to look out for.

 

Common Signs and Symptoms

 

Signs and Symptoms

Signs and Symptoms

 

Symptoms must last at least two weeks for a diagnosis of depression.

  • Tiredness and loss of energy.
  • Sadness that doesn’t go away.
  • Loss of self-confidence and self-esteem.
  • Difficulty concentrating.
  • Restlessness.
  • Not being able to enjoy things that are usually pleasurable or interesting.
  • Feeling anxious all the time
  • Avoiding people, sometimes even your close friends
  • Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.
  • Sleep pattern changes
  • Strong feelings of guilt or worthlessness
  • Finding it hard to function at work/college/school
  • Loss of appetite or a sudden increase in appetite
  • Loss of sex drive
  • Physical aches
  • Recurring thoughts of death
  • Self-harm

 

What Causes Depression?

Depression is not a mood you can just get over.

It is far more common than you might think, with nearly one out of 10 adults depressed at any time, about half of them severely.

No one knows the exact cause, however, researchers estimate that almost one out of every five people in the US, will experience major depression at some point in their lifetime. There are many possible causes such as stressful life events, medical conditions, or chemical imbalance.

It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away.

 

Ways To Cope

Find Your Happy Place

Find Your Happy Place

 

  • The primary medical options are Cognitive Behavioural Therapy
  • Anti-depressant medication
  • Exercise not only improves your health. Endorphins (‘feel good’hormones) are released and this can raise your mood
  • Breathing exercises and muscle relaxation
  • Build a support network with others who may be experiencing the same things as you
  • Continue to educate yourself about depression
  • Set realistic goals for yourself
  • Ask someone else for what you need
  • Talk to a therapist
  • Express yourself in writing
  • Stay connected with friends and families
  • Develop a healthy sleep routine

 

Getting Help

 

Help Is Available, You Are NOT Alone

Help Is Available, You Are NOT Alone

 

If you or someone you know is unable to cope with depression, professional help is available.

Chances are you may have experienced the disorder at some point in your life. If you are unsure, there is no harm in getting an assessment just to reassure yourself.

You don’t have to struggle through it alone. Don’t feel guilty for feeling the way you do. A mental illness/disorder is just like any other illness. Seek treatment early. Help is available and you are not alone.

 

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In the meantime, I have made a short video.

If you like to watch it you can click on the link provided: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEJ0fi17yI_9yW-J8ECQfrnqOQZ-BNZjz

YOU ARE NOT ALONE